ellenaamiremerald's blog
...this is writting about my personal life and my troubled perception of my personal reallity that people i knew bared upon me...
this chapter is difficult and hard not only to them, but also for many others that were part of this controversal ...
...PAST...
How I became glad
| Posted on December 8, 2013 at 10:30 AM |
What slowly made me happy, was understanding and the fact that I finally put my past at ease.
I finally made the effort I was waiting for, for so many years. The love I was searching for, the love I was looking for was finally upon me. Now that I found the strenght I needed I was more then happy to put the angry side of my character behind me. I am still working on it but am so much more happy to see that the real change of my personallity is upon me.
Thank you so much.
song II.
| Posted on August 6, 2013 at 11:00 AM |
i am inside of you if you know what i mean...
inside your track of mind.. you ought to belive...
tracking your time of stealing nerve... from me..
now you are to dissapear...
song..
| Posted on August 6, 2013 at 10:50 AM |
...now we are assaiance to be...
loumnny for time in me...
it matter does niey..
appart, for forever together to live..
music and music videos
| Posted on July 27, 2013 at 10:45 AM |
few years on from my first memory, i remember watching music video...
the music video i remember that got to me, was from an singer that i can't remember...
i saw it when i was at my grandparents house on a countyside...
i stayed there every summer for a few years in a row till i started going to school...
i still can't remember the song, but what got to me was that i comprehended it as a gentle, slow and nice
music... what i remember about the...
Read Full Post »what i did to have fun
| Posted on July 27, 2013 at 10:35 AM |
my earliest memories of what i occupied myself with, to make the uncomfort i was experiencing easiyer, from the first day that i remember
was interacting to music...
...using different kind of drugs...
| Posted on July 25, 2013 at 3:15 AM |
...at age of sixteen, i didn't realise the extent and consequence of my spiritual breaking down, that was about to be brought upon my life from that year on...
what followed my spiritual breaking down next, was my emotional destruction procces which took a little longer...
after this two processes merged and became fully stabilized, a new process became undergoing...
then started breaking down of ...
Read Full Post »...using different kind of drugs...
| Posted on July 25, 2013 at 3:05 AM |
my addiction became, as a response to my, then called, parents's behaviour's upbringings method...
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Read Full Post »...intro...
| Posted on July 24, 2013 at 6:50 PM |
explaining of what underlies my inner reallity, that is source of my emotional and spiritual
strengthening of nerves...
...love...
| Posted on July 24, 2013 at 6:20 PM |
...intro...
...this is my first expressing of deep physical, emotional and spiritual undergoing in my soul, mind and body
which evolved as a result of circumstances, that people ...
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